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The Waking
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.
I learn by going where I cannot go.
We think by feeling. What is there to know?
I hear my being dance from ear to ear.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
Of those so close beside me, which are you?
God bless the Ground! I shall walk softly there,
And learn by going where I have to go.
Light takes the Tree, but who can tell us how?
The lowly worm climbs up a winding stair;
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
Great Nature has another thing to do
To you and me; so take the lively air,
And, lovely, learn by going where to go.
This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.
What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go.
--Theodore Roethke
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Joy's Updates - Straight from the Horse's Mouth.
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Friday, July 23, 2004
Miracle!
Yes, it's happening! Something clicked and I'm getting my house in order. At last! Having a two-week vacation instead of the entire 8 weeks during the summer since I was working and making the big bucks we teachers are known for, has pressured me into a flurry of activity. Of course, it all happened this week. It began slowly and picked up momentum, unlike the way I generally do things now which is getting off to a slow start and going downhill after that. I have had to rest often between bouts of cleaning and sorting but now have an oasis of sparkling cleanliness in the bathroom. (doesn't sound like much but it's thorough) Other rooms are victims of the ADD method of de-cluttering and cleaning. Most people take a room at a time and finish it before moving on to the next. Not me. I've destroyed every room by having things out in stacks and piles. Maybe this way it will all come together at once.
Clothes have been sorted and are ready for their next destination. Hair-care products that didn't work for me are ready to take to the battered women's shelter as well as clothing, books, shoes, etc. Many of them escape with only the clothes they are wearing. I'm taking books and magazines to the library for them to sell. Cat food that mine wouldn't eat went to the humane shelter. Some of it will go to Goodwill if I decide to attempt a yard sale. I'd rather give things away than deal with that but might try it. We'll see.
I have also managed to work on my finances and finally am getting that sorted out. Being sick so long and going through it alone in terms of taking care of financial and home responsibilities has taken its toll. I didn't go through it alone with support, concern, and love from friends and family and am eternally grateful for that. Cancer cost me much more money than medical because of late payments, lapsed insurance and resulting higher payments, and other expenses we don't have when we are aware of what's going on. Recovery from serious illness encompasses many areas of our lives for quite a long time.
So I'm on a roll at last! It really just clicked in yesterday. Before that I was plodding along in a fog. The bird of organization has at last landed on my head! :-)
1:21:00 PM
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